To Do Too Hard?

14/10/10

Some days, you just don’t want To Do anything. For me, today is one of those days. Even writing this blog was a mission. I stopped. I started.I procrastinated.

I continued because I want to share that even people who relish ticking off lists and achieving things, sometimes hit the wall. 

Right now, my list looks like this;

To Do

Book BARMAX

Just the one To Do.

I’ve hit the wall because if you’d told me 5 years ago that at the age of 38, I’d be looking for waitressing work, I would have told you you’ve got the wrong girl.

I’m a copywriter by profession. I made a very successful career of it. Then one year, I made a staff decision that changed my career forever. It was a big mistake.

And some years later, after several erratic periods of work in my true profession, I’m looking at a To Do telling me to get qualified so I can beg for a job to serve people drinks. Talk about role reversal. 5 years ago, I was very happy on the other side of the bar.

So, I’ve stalled. If I book the course today, then I suddenly feel like I’m admitting I’m good for nothing else.

Don’t misunderstand me. I’ve worked in hospitality before. In New Zealand, at a restaurant in Ponsonby, Auckland called “Mosso”. I had a lot of fun in those years. I learned a lot about the industry and the customer. I was a good waitress. It’s just that I always saw that part of my life as life experience on the way to better things. I thought that part was done and dusted.

I think you’re always going to have those days when a To Do goes in the Too Hard basket.

Yesterday I was positive. Today I am not. Reality check. Nothing has changed since yesterday except my perspective.

Perspective:

At the end of this day, a day I’m never going to get back by the way, it will either have been a constructive day, or not. And while every day is different, if I go for the “not” option, then I know for sure that tomorrow, I’ll regret that I didn’t do more with a perfectly good Thursday.

Facts:

1. I don’t have to register for the bar course today.
2. Tomorrow, I don’t want to regret that I got nothing done today.

So, 1 aside and 2 in mind, I need to add some smaller more achievable goals to my list today. Things I like doing.

To Do

Bake a slice - My Dad and his girlfriend oops sorry fiancée, (long-story-different-blog) have been visiting from NZ. They’re off to Brisbane tomorrow. I’ll send them off with a nice slice.

Gym Session - if the most common excuse for people not exercising is, “I haven’t got time” (which, by the way is highly debatable don’t get me started)… then while I’m unemployed, I certainly can’t make that excuse, can I? Exercise always makes me feel better. 

Write menu for tonight. (Or Bake a Slice contd.) Their last night here. I’ll make a special dinner. People who know me know that baking and entertaining are two of my favourite therapies.

1 hour on Job sites – this isn’t something I like doing, but I compromised with myself. If I put a time limit on it, then I’ll more likely do it. And even though it’s just an hour, it’s an hour more constructive than I’d intended, considering the way I feel right now.

Not a life changing list, but definitely an improvement on the earlier version. And as I press publish, I’m already better off than I was this morning.